somewhere along the line we fell apart
and i know you don't want to admit it
but sometimes it's letting go that makes you strong.
forever was always a bittersweet lie,
said to keep your heart beating while mine broke
again and again. but now i've learned what courage is
and i've learned that i can and must stand alone
(even if it hurts.)
take a breath of that polluted january air
and know that no matter how many tears you shed,
i'll always shed more as i stand outside
drinking in the frigid feelings of rejection,
letting the tears freeze in perfect crystal reminders
of the hell you put me through.
don't look at me like it's unfair and don't you dare
ask for me to forgive you and move on.
you had your chance.
bad day.. ignore this
i don't know what i just wrote
This reminds me of a few poems I wrote a few years back directed at a particular someone; we've probably been through some similar times I like how you brought out the truth of your emotion in this, very real, very genuine. By the way and for perhaps later on down the road, I found burning my poetry to be very therapeutic helped me let go of the emotional attachments, grudges and bitterness I was holding through them to watch those words purified in fire, maybe you should try it sometime (:
Oh really? Well I'm glad you can relate, though I suppose not for the best of reasons.... and I will have to try the burning poetry thing, I have a lot of things written towards certain people that.. that should just be forgotten
After a while I just got tired of holding on to those monuments to failure, judgements, etc. I even burnt a number of drawings, I said to myself "You know, these aren't even that good, so why am I still holding on to them? I need to let these people go." And so I did. *shrug* that might not be for everyone, but it helped me a little. (:
The emotion here is incredibly intense. Nice job.